finding words for happiness is a hard thing
I don't write about the happy times as much as I do about the sad ones. I guess it's for the reason that with sadness, I just want to get everyting out, and wanting it to dissapear. But I don't want that with happiness, I want to preserv that wonderful feeling. Not get it out. I found it's so much harder writing about happiness than it is about sadness, and therefor I mostly just write about the sad times. And I can't find words for happiness..
I read somewhere that you can't write a good story, if everything is great. It must be some pain in there, otherwise it's not going to get good. And I completely agree with that. Because when I'm happy, I really can't write anything other than crap.
But I want that to end. Because my life isn't mostly sad. It's actually more happy. And I want to be able to see that, be able to read what it felt like then, looking back.. Just as I have to photograph me with my friends and family more. I don't have many pictures like that. It's close to zero. But that is going to change!