Yesterday, I spent the day with the girl above. A 18 year old girl from Brasil who came to sweden not so long ago. She is going to be here for a year, Au Pair. She only speaks portuguese so we sat and translated trough google translate for like seven hours just talking. It was really fun, especially when the translating went wrong all the time and everything went crazy. Loads of laughs troughout the day. One time I should ask if I could photograph her, I asked if I could shoot her... Google Translate can cost people's lifes. ;)
It's really fun getting to know her, and how it is there in Brasil. She showed me loads of pictures and told me about life there. Everything seems to be different there. For starters, she lives just by the beach. I wish I could go there and see how it is. Someday.
I want to learn portuguese. So far I've learned five words; sim, não, frio, e & chá (no, yes, cold, and & tea) I'm so awesome.
While I found this pictures, I also found some footage from when I was in Denmark with my family 2006. Such a beautiful place. I remember when we was on our way to the boat home, and we stopped and got out and walked. I can't remember why, but I guess it was for some good reason. And after a while we found the most beautiful place, like a desert. We walked and jumped in the sandbanks which had the most soft and beautiful sand I've seen. We flied down the hills. And everytime we got over one, we expected to see the ocean, but it was just more sand. Eventually, we saw the ocean far away.
greece 2000 and denmark 2006 / don't know if i have taken any of these
i really don't like sweden, i really don't. frankly i hate it, and that i can say without any lying. now it's five months of snow, darkness, and a colorless world and i can't handle it much longer. i want to leave this world, and enter a new one. i don't want to live here. i want to go far, far away and never go back. to a place where the sun is shining and you can be happy. i think i was born in the wrong place. i don't feel at home here and i can't wait to leave, and that's not what home should feel like. all the things i like, is elsewere. my biggest dream is to travel, dive, live near the ocean, see whales, dolphins. thats the stuff which makes me happy when i'm feeling down, just by thinking of them.
i want to experience different cultures. different people from the one here in sweden. i still want to take the first flight somewhere far away like i did months ago. i still think i was born on the wrong place, like something went wrong and i'm not suppost to be here. but out there i am, somewhere. i don't travel much now, barely anything. when i was four or five years old my family and i went to greece with relatives and that is the only time i really went somewhere, and i don't even remember it. sure, we have visited danmark a few times, but for me, that doesn't count.
i just want to leave. but i can't. i'm stuck. depressed. i hate sweden.
i've always wanted to travel, but i've never had this feeling. not this strong. i want to leave.
I found some old (not so old that some might look tho, haha) pictures from almost two years ago. I really couldn't edit my pictures then but with some re-edit and old texture, here is what they look like. I've really developed in that area too, not just the camera-handling part. And after that I kind of like them now actually. Any favorites or thoughts? Love to hear them. :)
To be nobody but yourself in a world which is doing its best, night and day, to make you everybody else means to fight the hardest battle which any human being can fight
It is moments like this I regret I didn't buy the canon eos 7d. Now I really wanna start filming. Like crazy. So many ideas, so inspired. I looked back on some photos that was still left on some CDs and I found some clips I shoot, and I thought it would be fun to make a video. All the pictures are taken with an increadibly crappy digital camera (even if some, surprisingly, looks good). The camera was really shitty, and it didn't even have a focus build in, but I loved it so much anyway. And here is some pictures and videos from 2007, I was 11 years old at the time.
Hope you like it, I really want to do more things like this. Just have to buy something that can film first.. :)
The ocean is the most wonderful place on earth. Wish I could live near it.
Probably the best movie I've ever seen. On of the most horrible, sad and happy movies, all at the same time. This movie really got me thinking, and that it's based on a true story is just greater. The movie is about the mountain climber Aron Ralstone (played by James Franco) and when he 2003, while canyoneering gets stuck between a boulder and the canyon wall. It's about his fight for survival. He didn't tell anyone where he was going and he knew that no-one would search for him.
127 hours, more than five days, with barely any water, any hope and he is assumed he is going die. Eventually he ran out of water. He carved in his name in the rock and date of birth with his pocket knife in the canyon wall and videotaped his goodbyes to his family. He prepares to amputate his arm, but realizes that he would never be able to cut trough the bones with just his pocket knife. But in the end, he survives. But free from the rock dosn't mean its all over. He is still out in the middle of nowhere, no cellphone, dehydrated and risk bleeding to death, 27 kilometers from his vehicle..
This movie really spoke to me. He gave up and was ready to die, yet something inside him told him to keep going, keep living. And to be able to cut trough your own flesh, can't imagine.. His will to live what was made me love this movie so much. This film made me happy. Really happy. In the end, it feels like everything is possible. Aron Ralstone wrote a book about his experience, which the film is based on.
I really have to read it. Between a Rock and a Hard Place.
My friend send me this a while ago. Made me cry, it really touched me.
Life can be so damn unfair sometimes...
Death Of An Innocent
I went to a party, mom, I remember what you said. You told me not to drink, mom, so I drank soda instead. I really felt proud inside, mom, even though the others said I should.
I know I did the right thing, mom, I know you are always right. Now the party is finally ending, mom, as everyone is driving out of site. As I got into my car, mom, I knew I would get home in one piece. Because of the way you raised me, mom, so responsible and sweet.
I stared to drive away, mom, but I pulled out into the road, The other car didn’t see me, mom, and hit me like a load. As I lay here on the payment, mom, I hear the policeman say, The other guy is drunk, mom, and now I’m the one who will pay.
I’m lying here dying, mom, I wish you’d get here soon. How could this happen to me, mom? My life just burst like a balloon. There is blood all around me, mom, and most of it is mine. I hear the medic say, mom, I’ll die in a short time.
I just wanted to tell you, mom, I swear I didn’t drink. It was the others, mom. The others didn’t think.
He was probably at the same party as I. The only difference is, he drank and I will die.
Why do people drink, mom? It can ruin your whole life. I’m feeling sharp pains now, mom, pains just like a knife. The guy that hit me is walking, mom, I don’t think it is fair. I’m lying here dying, mom, and all he can do is stare.
Tell my brother not to cry, mom, tell daddy to be brave. And when I go to haven, mom, put “daddy’s girl” on my grave. Someone should have told him, mom, not to drink and drive. If only they had told him, mom, I would still be alive.
My breath is getting short, mom, I’m becoming very scared. Please don’t cry for me, mom. When I need you, you were always there.
I have one last question, mom, before I say good bye. I didn’t drink and drive, mom, so why am I the one to die?
Here is some more pictures from when I photographed this lovely family. My favorites above actually, love them. I think they're so adorable and you can really see the love. ♥
ps. Did you notice the change of my URL? It's now hannahlarsson.com, I changed it yesterday. I noticed that the address I had before (hlphotography.webblogg.se/) was waaaaay to complicated to spell for others than it should be. But now it's really simple and plus - it looks more professional, haha! ;)
It was quite beautiful outside today when it snowed with a shining sun, so me and my dogs got out and I brought my camera with me. Can you tell from the photos that Cinnamon (the brown one) is completely crazy about snow? He dives in the high snow, as if his life depended on it, just to save his little ball. My cutie. ♥
He also jumped up on the table in our living room today.. I had switched sides with the footstool and the table so he just jumped right up on it and sat down, looked around and looked completely confused. Haha, it looked so damn crazy!
I am spending this Valentine's day alone.. All by myself. But I guess I'm not that lonely after all. Last night I talked to my friend, and when it approached midnight we counted down and wiched each other a happy valentine's day. ♥
Hope you have a beautiful day and take care of each other!!
Which is your favorite season? Mine is definitely the summer, when you feel free to do anything and can just be.. Long summer nights with people you love, spending time on the beach, go swimming and that it's just warm and you don't have to put hundred layers of clothing on so you don't freeze to death..
I hate the winter, though I have my birthday and christmas in the wintertime, I really hate it. I always feel isolated and down when the snow comes. And just when I thought the spring was on it's way, it snows a shitload so now it back on square one again to melt everything down.
Gaah, going mad here! Someone please take me far away?
Yesterday I photographed a family - a mom with a five year old son and two months old twins. It was really fun and I got many really beautiful pictures of them that I like. So wonderful family.
Haha, I'm really glad that I know them and have met them before because we (me with the help of my mum) moved around all the furniture and took lamps and all crazy stuff in their home, haha. Don't know if I could have done that if I hadn't known them, would have felt more wrong than it already did! ;) But it was really fun, but challenging.
Got over 500 photos before we were done.. and my memorycard got full.... so I couldn't continue... Luckily for me, the five year old got really bored, and the babies hungry and sad after a while so we decided it was best to do it an other time. Note to self: I REALLY need a bigger memory card, now proven. So I'm going back there next week to photograph the last pictures, and cuddle with babies of course. :)
The cutest thing I've ever seen would probably be baby twins, one in a santa claus costume and the other in a Lucia costume, with lucia crown and all, with the big brother in a Gingerbread costume. So freaking adorable!!!!!
A bit late, but it was a christmas theme as you probably already could tell. ;) Are going to ask if I can post some of them next soon, hopefully I can show some here. They were all so adorable, so I hope it's okay to at least put some of them up so I can share the cuteness and love. :)
and to not let this post get so boring with just text, here is a photo I took before all the snow came.
I locked my blog for a while, just because I got sick of it and it didn't cooperate with me. A few people got a bit worried but now it's open and normal again.
But I am really thinking about deleting it tho... It's just not fun, the layout won't cooperate with me and I can't get it the way I want to. I'm not a very interesting person and I haven't that many people reading anyway. My inspiration is below zero and I havn't picked up my camera like anything at all.
Sure, I probably should keep it.. but I just think my whole blog is just so boooooring it would be better if it didn't existed..
Maybe I should start posting things that I like and that I am inspired by that isn't my creation? Haven't done that before, just my stuff all around but..
The updates have been really bad recently, but I've other things on my mind and on top of that I can't show any pictures anyways. I photograph in RAW and on my mums computer, which I'm now using while mine isn't working, don't have the right programs I need to process my pictures... So I can't show any new pictures I've taken before I get my computer...
BUT my dad bought me a new computer today, so hopefully I have a perfect computer again when it arrives! :)
A drawing I did which is supposed to look like me. It wasn't ment for it to be like that from the beginning, but in the end I just crazed it up and I actually like it.
What do you think?
A drawing I did earlier which is supposed to look like me. It wasn't ment for it to be like that from the beginning, but in the end I just crazed it up and I actually like it. Very different from how I use to draw, really fun with something new!
hi. i'm hannah, age: 17 spins of the earth. sweden. i have photographed since i was 10. and i do it alot. more than i could ever be able to post. i'm always with a camera in my hands. here are some of my photos and art, plus a little thoughts and whatelse. i hope you stay. please write a few words if you feel like it, always make me happy. love, h