I'm spending the days with this girl who's here from Brazil and she's teaching me Portuguese, and I'm teaching her Swedish. And at the same time I'm cuddling with babytwins, who now laughs (almoooost) all the time.

It's the best way you can spend your days according to me! :)

Cross your fingers for me that I'll learn some Portuguese before the end of the year.. and of course for my ability to save up money (which I strongly doubt that I even have)...

It's so fun that more people have found my blog. Hello to you all and I hope you stay! ♥

Million thanks to all of you!

 

 

I miss missing you, because I don't anymore. I miss wanting you to be the first to know everything that have happened, just you. Wanting to share every happy moment with you, every sad one. I used to miss you so much, but I don't anymore. I miss that, you know, missing you. And I miss what we used to be. We used to be something more, something special. But it's gone. And I don't think we are ever going to get what we had back...

from the archieve 2010

 

Don't be too fat, or too thin, or too dark, or too light; don't be too sexual, or too chaste, or too smart, or too dumb. Be yourself.
But make sure you fit in.

I just had an idea from two pictures I took a while ago. Here is the outcome. Don't really know if I like it or not.

 

What the hell is up with me and broken things?

I'm feeling alot better now. Was sick exactly the whole leave and now when it's over I begin to feel better... Never been this sick for a long time, I've just been sleeping and feeling crappier than ever. But I think it's starting to get better now so hopefully it disappears fully soon.

I'm not dead.. But I'm really sick.. On sunday I got better, but then everything turned around the night to monday and everything got worse. I can't remember feeling this sick ever... I just want to get better. I can't even get out of bed most of the time and I'm tired all the time. The rest I think I shouldn't describe..

The storm is coming but i don't mind. 
People are dying, i close my blinds. 

All that i know is i'm breathing now. 

I want to change the world...instead i sleep. 
I want to believe in more than you and me. 

But all that i know is i'm breathing. 
All i can do is keep breathing. 
All we can do is keep breathing now. 

All that i know is i'm breathing. 
All i can do is keep breathing. 
All we can do is keep breathing now.


Keep Breathing - Ingrid Michaelson

I got a question why I write my blog in english. It's because I really like it. I often think in english too, it's really weird. I feel like I can express myself so much better in english than I can in swedish. Like english has more accurate words to my feelings. Also because I plan to move overseas someday soon. As soon as I can. And I didn't think I should, but I've really developed my english and it's even more easy to write.

kom snälla.

Here's an old selfportrait from 2010. My hands too. I've posted this picture before, but with a completely different editing. They look like two completely different photos, seriously. How you edit you pictures can contribute alot to the feeling. I actually like this one more than the first one, but I really liked the other one when I made it. It took a long time editing it to make it look realistic because the hands are mine. I think this one gives a more dark feeling than the last one did. This one is like more raw and real.

soon it's my turn. i'm scared.. i am going to jump out of a plane, 3000 meters above the ground in 200 km/h..

Matilda Holmqvist, 18. Were shall I begin? She's one of the greathest photographer I've ever seen, and that I can say without exaggeration. She is doing something nobody has done before and she's always doing something different, and her photos never gets old because of that. She always comes with something new. Her pictures are something entirely different, and the way she edit her pictures is just extraordinary. I've never seen anything like it, and I've never been so impressed. Everytime she post something, I can't get words out. It's mostly just a big, fat "Wow". Everyone single of her pictures tells a story, and thats exactly what I think photography is about - to be more than just something beautiful to look at - and she definitely manage to do that. I've never seen anything that inspires me so much, and is so different from what everyone else is doing. She inspires me so much, and have such a creativity. I could go on forever about how amazing her pictures is, but you get it.

And thats not all that's good about her. She have the most amazing personality. She is on of the kindest people I've meet on the internet. She is positive, unique and doesn't at all seem to be one of those people who are trying to be somebody they're not, she is herself and is proud of that. She is always glad to help and every single one of her comments makes me smile like crazy, even if I have the worst day. She is a great friend. If there could be more people like her, the world would be a better place. She is without a doubt one of the most amazing people here on the internet (in real life too). 

And maybe the best of all, she is going to photograph me this summer. Can't wait to meet this person. She definitely inspires me very much and that's not surprising when you've seen her work. Just take a look: